Ups and Downs

My day was full of Ups and Downs. And i felt my mood was on a roller coaster ride. It was quite a horrible feeling at the end of the day.

Morning woke up early, went down to school for project discussion. Provided some details and we somehow got our figures on track. Then i and shu geok Invaded the level 3 book shelf, searching for more sales figures, but we failed. Hmm.. one interesting thing i found out was - our library provides books of newspaper clippings happened in singapore during 1988-1990s. SO COOL LAR! i can read up on what happened during my year when i was born ;)

Bought sandwich then went to class le. 4 hours in Blk 56 and i almost froze to death. Fugging teacher saw my wallpaper and said "very nice photo... whats this?" -FYI: its the pic of i and boy holding hands. kinda blurry one. Anyway, i could not open other programs to cover it because my web browser was Youtube and the other programs were MSN and mahjong game. muahaha.. bo bian. let him comment lorhs~~

After class, met volleyball gang then had games! its been ages since i played in court. had fun and then training started. i was pretty bored out during the training so i went for a run. 2.4km =) satisfied with the distance but my ankle is killing me. guess it havent really recovered after multiple times of spraining. i think its useless now, even the support does not really help le. -.-Zzz

After training, had some talking sessions with trainers. From the side, i viewed many different thoughts. all intentions were good, yet it was hard to be carried out. At this point of time, i felt i was too tired to think more. Yet again, i felt helpless because i could share with no-one who would understand me.

Rushed to KAP to return my overdued vcd. Mac-ed and had fun with the gang. LOL. i look forward to friday night. =)

Bus-ed home. I dont know what got into me, but i fell asleep when my bus was already very near my stop. Eventually, i missed my stop. I had to walk back with my HEAVY laptop, my heavy bag containing project stuffs and a shoe bag. I almost felt like sitting by the road and hoping someone could share this "burden" with me. sigh^

Homed after midnight -.- then on the TV to watch for awhile.
Suddenly, my mum said "wanna go watch grasshopper concert?"
i screamed and said "YES YES YES!"
so we booked the tickets online! LOLs... love my mama!
She so funny lar....... she blamed me for not telling her earlier, if not can get better seats -.- PLEASE LOR! i told her long long ago that i wanna watch le! just that she dont wanna pay. Zzz.. plus last time when i say i wanna watch 5566 concert, she also dont allow.
hehehe... so happy lehs.. my 童年偶像..
Mama actually wanted to convince me to watch Jacky Cheung. NONO! i want grasshopper. more high!
looking forward to it =D

Opps! we didnt ask my bro when booking, so he is not going. LOL. =X


Humans are weird. Sometimes they feel painful, yet they continue to do it. Sometimes they feel the "other" type of pain and they choose to leave. The pain i felt at that point of time made me cover up my "other" pain. The more i feel it, the more relieve i got. Psycho it may seem, but that was what happened to me.
i guess making myself silent helps ease my pain. i choose silence because i dont want to be hurt anymore, i dont want to cry le.. There are too much things happening around me, making me feel like dying.