fucked up

I've lost my phone.
i dropped it on the bus and i know its my fault.

i could have done alot of things before the phone was picked up 2 hours later.
i could have taken a cab down to bukit batok (cause i know the bus plate)
i could have waited at np bus stop till the bus set out on the next ride again.
but i didnt do all of the above.

since i've lost my phone. i will live w/o a phone now. since thats what my mum wants, i SHALL NOT get my sim card back asap. im not bothered by who is going to find me or wadsoever. i shall just go out on my own and have my own activities. YAR, less trouble cause my home wont be calling me.

super fucked up when i lost my phone and the person on back the phone and hung up my call when i contd to try dialling in. got even more pissed off when I ADMITTED MY MISTAKE IN FRONT OF MY MUM. i should have just cried my ass off. explain more, kanna shot more.
this time it hurts even more than losing my K750i cause this phone has a freaking 1G memory and TONS of contacts.
whats great now is i will not be working till sunday.

i shall just leave myself uncontactable till i repent my mistake and when i feel like getting a phone to tok to other people.

if u wanna just cut off my line, so be it. theres always top-up card.
another lucky thing is that, there is VERY LITTLE people who know my house phone. anyway, i dont plan to stay home.