*crying*
tts what im feeling now..
af everything in this 2 mths+, ive concluded:
im not good for u .. im a failure .
*sobx*
i wun comment alot in this blog today.
for the first time, he did someth tt he promised,b4 we stead, he wun do it. but i guess .. he was too angry wif me.
starting to feel tt d ring caused today's happening. n money was d nx factor.. weird?
anyway, af tt, we parted. i went back to sch. played vb till my back hurt. so i went to the opp bball court n lean while toking to xf ppl.. not long, 6pm dao le.. xf n rojak(zhi wei and ming kai de ppl) team dao le.. *peep* match start ... but my mind still floating somewhere else.. but i learn how to take score n do statistic liao.
they played unil 8+ den finish .. so we tok tok .. but my mind still somewhere else .. "shld i b looking forward to goin home or not goin home?" cox i knw i'll cry once i reach hm.. called back "ram, i not eating at home alrdy.." in another words, i not eating tonite le.. i c food i wanna vommit.. sux..
reach hm at 9.30 .. started smsing wif him. and i cried in the toilet while bathing. now im fighting back my tears. am i holding him back? am i causing him so many unhappiness. i seem to b the only one happy but not him. shit. i sux .. my heart is aching so badly now.. so badly till i cant breathe.. dun save me. let me stand alone. i sux. tts all.
tts what im feeling now..
af everything in this 2 mths+, ive concluded:
im not good for u .. im a failure .
*sobx*
i wun comment alot in this blog today.
for the first time, he did someth tt he promised,b4 we stead, he wun do it. but i guess .. he was too angry wif me.
starting to feel tt d ring caused today's happening. n money was d nx factor.. weird?
anyway, af tt, we parted. i went back to sch. played vb till my back hurt. so i went to the opp bball court n lean while toking to xf ppl.. not long, 6pm dao le.. xf n rojak(zhi wei and ming kai de ppl) team dao le.. *peep* match start ... but my mind still floating somewhere else.. but i learn how to take score n do statistic liao.
they played unil 8+ den finish .. so we tok tok .. but my mind still somewhere else .. "shld i b looking forward to goin home or not goin home?" cox i knw i'll cry once i reach hm.. called back "ram, i not eating at home alrdy.." in another words, i not eating tonite le.. i c food i wanna vommit.. sux..
reach hm at 9.30 .. started smsing wif him. and i cried in the toilet while bathing. now im fighting back my tears. am i holding him back? am i causing him so many unhappiness. i seem to b the only one happy but not him. shit. i sux .. my heart is aching so badly now.. so badly till i cant breathe.. dun save me. let me stand alone. i sux. tts all.
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